I don't know if writing helps...

I've been searching lately to pin-down some sort of spiritual practice.
Something consistent and something that works!
I know it works when, after the practice, I am an overwhelming POSITIVE person
I feel better after the practice.

This is not where my yoga practice nor my massage practice led me today.
In fact, it just allowed me to wallow deeper in contemplating my despair.
Maybe sometimes there's just no natural remedy to take me UP from being down.

Today the affirmations were all about accepting the pain and disappointment of life.
I am always avoiding discomfort, pain, injustices, depression, anger
And I fully embrace optimism and enthusiasm for life.
I figure, when I'm not feeling WONDERFUL, than there is something I must do... and fast.

When I don't do something to reverse the ill feelings I am having
the negative thought and feeling linger, and sometimes fester.
I did help today my chanting, "I am grateful. I am appreciative. I am grateful. I am appreciative"
That helped a lot.

I notice when I can physically voice positive statements-- even better-- when I can say positive statements out loud, the power is more obvious. The lowest form of power is when something just swirls in the head. Writing is the second most powerful. Only second, because you can keep it in your head for quite a long time.

Voicing things out loud is the third most potent form of transmutation- something negative into something positive. I want to be a leader on this planet. I want to be a leader on this planet.

In many forms. I want to be a leader on this planet.
I want to be a compassionate leader on this planet.
Today, I didn't do so great. And that's ok. I still love and accept myself.

My attention span seems low. I need something to help train my mind. Is writing on this blog the answer to my conundrum...? I notice that writing is the second best- also meaning it is the second-most accessible. If I can't say something or have the freedom to say something, than I better have the balls to write it. Ahh.... writing it. Why is writing so great anyways?

Perhaps writing is a way, method of compost. Maybe... just maybe... the negative voices that I give attention to... maybe the negative voices that I write down will magically loose power when I write them down. Or perhaps it is a process where one writes down the negative thought, then erases it and writes in the positive thought. So, like a writing process that has two major phases. The dark side----erase-- and then the light side.

The mind seems to have both perspectives at all time. But, I bet I can train my mind to only see the positive. It is about training- and superhero warrior training in our day. This takes focus on words, and the ability to TAKE RESPONSIBILITY.
I TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY THOUGHTS, WORDS AND ACTIONS