Sunday, February 17, 2013

Is not too hard to explain enlightenment...


I am writing with a passionate purpose to provide a raw, honest and insightful critique to a movie I recently saw called, Enlighten UP! This movie’s aim is to turn people off from exploring the journey of going within, and refrain from using well documented and effective tools, such as yoga and meditation.

For those already using yoga in their daily lives, they not need to see the film. For those even slightly interested in exploring the reasons why yoga is effective for finding internal peace, this movie will give you such a negative glance at “spirituality” (as they call it) that afterwards you won’t want to step foot in a yoga studio. In order words, if you’re on the fence about deciding whether or not to have faith in making personal transformation toward greater overall health, this movie will convince you that there’s no such thing as a path or way to achieve happiness. How depressing is that?! 

This movie is designed to help those who don’t dedicate their lives to seeking their own personal truths feel more secure and OK with the lack of participation in the human spirit liberation movement. It gives examples, case studies, and interviews to somehow make an argument that contentment is located far outside yourself. You walk away more confused about spirituality than when you started watching the film.

If you haven’t noticed, I don’t have positive evidence to convince you that this movie is helping humanity evolve in a higher direction of peace and love. The movie’s highly superficial representation of yoga, and the way in which the practice impacts the lives of millions, is dishonorable and (my personal passionate feeling) intolerable.

My anger toward the spiritless direction of this story is the emotional layer on top of the sadness. I find the downtrodden message of “there’s no calculable evidence that proves a self-nurturing practice, like yoga, leads to greater levels of overall happiness” is so pathetically unrealistic, or as my friend Coco Dave would say, "We're constantly given misinformation". What’s even more sad is this movie has emerged during a critical time on the planet when humans are needing empowering solutions, alternative choices, comfort, encouragement and tools to go within so they can escape the rat race of capitalism. 
 It seems like the fear vibration of the movie surfaces around the self-hate notion of “I am going to resist slowing down, closing my eyes, tuning into how I feel- (without my eyes), ask myself how I am doing…”—all for what? To continue to share disempowering messages with you:  keep up with what that person is doing over there because I care more about what that person thinks that I do about my own personal happiness. Fear, fear, fear and blah, blah, blah!

Yoga helps eradicate the obsessive nature to fixate on the external world as reason to not believe in the safety and sacredness of the self. Yoga is simply feeling the body and doing a physical moving practice using the breath and body in such a way that feels liberating for the individual. And moving the body is one method to express creativity, which is in all of us and needs a platform to release.

This movie is probably the best excuse in the world for me to dedicate my time to sharing the “ah ha” moments of life, both through movie and music. Because YES there are tools to help calm the mind and focus on peace. YES there are ways to physically open the heart to feel a natural sensation of euphoria. YES there is a way to explain the benefits of yoga by shinning the light of truth. YES the spiritual journey is a rewarding one, and it is not too hard to explain enlightenment.

All of if can be taught, and thus all of it can be learned. What it boils down to is the category of readiness of the person. I see that there are three levels: 1) You’re ready and willing to try anything to see the results and have the experience 2) You’re interested, so you start asking questions of how to begin the journey 3) You are a skeptical (the film maker and guinea pig) and are not interested. These types of people are the ones that do for the wrong reasons- trying to please someone outside you, a virtue trap or doing it purely for monetary reward.


In the case of the movie, Enlighten UP! Nick Rosen- the chosen subject to be a “guinea pig” for the different modes to increase awareness had a negative attitude from the start, and it was obvious he had no conscious, heart-driven desire to learn. Motivated to make money and through the virtue trap of, “I gotta finish what I’ve started” the movie drags on and the low moments get lower as one sinks in a pool of hopelessness.

So, unless you’re wanting confirmation to not have faith that life is a fulfilling process of getting to know yourself, your connection to your body, others and the planet, than this movie will leave you disturbed.

Nick Rosen, the main character, is a tragic and classic example of how yoga in the mainstream representation is poorly misunderstood, displayed as esoteric and under represented.  Now, more than ever yoga is a practice to be regarded with great respect because it is a highly relevant practice to further human evolution/enlightment .

I know my purpose for watching this film was to figure out what not to do for a documentary regarding consciousness raising. I am going to create a very easy to understand and practical movie that explores teaching the individual to realize it’s own glory, beauty and purpose on the planet. Because we’re all needing that download more than anything.

Say Good-bye to denial and hello to empowering information!


 

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

The Potency of Money


Life is getting easier without a partner to share life with, but it definitely has it's challenges. I realize how much I've been depending on and using men (relationships) in my life to strengthen me. In some cases I even see I take advantage of the strengths that men have, and for this, I am not proud.

One example is that I could either go to a car mechanic and pay them what they ask me, or try to "save" money by spending time with a "man friend" who has the time and love for me to fix my car. As I was watching my friend fix up my van today, marveling at the difficulty of fixing a broken radiator, I had a greater appreciation for car mechanics. What they do is not fun, nor is it easy. It definitely take a lot of time to get in the engine, and it's really boring, stinky, leads to horrible body posture and it's messy.


I admittedly felt ashamed for asking him for help and not sucking it up and paying the amount the mechanic asked me. What I realized is trying to save a couple bucks and getting a friend to do it for free is not right. In the long run, it's a bad habit to get myself into. When things break down I either need to fix them or take them to a mechanic. Since I never plan on becoming a mechanic, it's important for me to realize that part of my money needs to go to that. Time is money.

I haven't been in a far-ingrained habit of working and making money in many years. For this reason, I am excited and ready to start my new life in Idaho making good money and getting into the habit of waking up and going to work. My lack of financial strength has really been holding me back in Hawaii and has led me to spend time with people that I wouldn't normally spend time with. The kind of people that fix cars are the kind to eat meat, cuss, drink and never do yoga. Why partner up and pose as a friend when I know the truth deep down inside. It is now I am really just now understanding the difference between a friend and a business relationship. I have really confused so many boundaries and relationships in my life because of money. It's incredible how powerful and important money is...

I am looking forward to moving on.. to starting anew... It's been intense being with my lover and friend, Eric, for almost two years and then separating. He makes it out to be like the separation has been very easy for him, as for me it has been really hard. But, moving on and being in Idaho will be really really good for me. I feel so attached to him. Only time heals.

I feel bad distracting myself with things to get me to move on, but I realize this is only productive because he has no plans or desire to get back with me. It's like I want to be true to my authentic heart and pray for me to be led back to him, but it takes two to tango.


Bottom line: My life is going to be so different when I have money. I make poor decisions when the money fear and lack present. I am not hurting people, only hurting myself. Yes, I am not making the best decisions now, so I post pone better decisions for the future. This doesn't even sound like it is allowed in spiritual terms. hahah. I will try to make better decisions in the future and realize using people to get free stuff to save me money is not winning in the long run. The shame is not healthy. I want to be proud of myself...

So, here's to ending my mission of poverty and here's to abundance coming my way. Here's to making better decisions not clouded with fear and lack. Here's to entering a partnership with strength.

I love myself so much
I accept myself
I am on a journey!!!


Sunday, February 3, 2013

Creating Boundaries


I am very upset with myself. It is at times like these I wonder how this effects my overall self-trust....?

I am torn apart on the insides because I have compromised my truth and I am finding that the reason it happened was because I have no boundaries in place that I have affirmed.

It is not OK for me to engage in sexual activities with men I do not find attractive
It is not OK with me "paying" for things through flirting
Men do NOT hold all the power; that's the illusion worth dissolving

It is OK and safe for me to say when it is uncomfortable
Leaving it up to the moment to "figure it out" is not healty
When the body is touched, it is seduced, and this impacts the decision-making of the mind (for the moment)

My sensuality is SACRED
Golden question, "Would I ever do that to him?"
And, "What am I gaining from this?"
"What am I really wanting from this relationship?"
I am strong; I don't "need" anybody

I am committing to ending the suffering of not holding strong to my beliefs
I CAN enforce the rules that I have put in place for myself
I take myself seriously first before anyone else
I take my beliefs as firstly more important than other people's beliefs
It is not in my highest good to be "wishy-washy"